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Friday, February 13, 2009
You control your destiny and future.Noone but you. somehow life seems incomplete. i'm happy[= being with ur family has its hidden bliss. it gave me e sense of serenity. a peaceful within. an achievement of some sort. i learnt the meaning of love. it dun just exist in adam and eve. but in any bond tt live. i'm glad i've turned to e right aim. to gladly repay what i owe..
but something still feel amiss. just dun fl ryte. but i simply can't decide on what.
was raking up some junks in my closet. will be shifting again soon. so myte as well start earlier.than later. i'm a well known procrastinator. so i shld try dealing with it while tyme permits.lols. as i was saying before i went astray, i was raking upp junks; and found some old stuffs to reminisce on. lols.boy!am i glad to find those stuffs.lols. letters.chatlogs.old diaries. lols.literal junk!:D was reading e chat logs me & my ex had.lols. she asked me to be her gf onlyne. and gullible as i was; also blinded by love. eagerly accepted and trusted those words. didn't bother thinking or dwelling over its consequences. just *bammmm ryte into the danger.lols. naive child i WAS!hurhur.
i fell in and out of love; like it's e norms.lols. hurt over and over agn. i believe tt's e reason to why i'm still strong and standing now. i sure am glad tt my path crossed with those who hurt me badly. for thru them i learnt e meaning of not trusting noone but urself. for u came into this world by urself. and only ur parents were by ur side. bestfriends,relatives,friends and lovers didn't exist then.yet u survived this far. so why shld u let others be e reason to why u live.let urself be ur own motivational strength. for i slowly believe tt a hero lies in me. each tyme i fall; tt hero will lift me up.
i'm really elated to see myself laughing at my past tears.lols.recalled myself tearing my hearts out cos of heartaches. emotionals suicides;one after another. those slashes now causing UGLY scars on my hand. but i never regret(: just lesson learnt. what i did or who i was is what tt led to who i am now. and who i am ryte now will be who i am gonna be later on. life is just a roller coaster that goes in circle. it never stops nor pause for u. i look into my diary and was actually sad at e fact tt time flies too fast.it felt like yest i cried for all my ex-es.. just yest i got att;one after another. just yest i ditch someone. just yest i felt love.and unloved. just yest life was great. but i guess no matter what life goes on.
i've met great ppl in my life who had a gr8 deal of an impact in my life.they've all contributed a small sum in what i am today. a much stronger emotionally and less temperamental me. i can take all tt u throw to me. be it a love triangle.or one-sided love. a broken heart. now i take it all to my stride. and tt gave me more strength to live by. nth hurt me tt much anymore. tears have gone dry.weird. in secondary days.i was known as e weeper. i weep @ literally everything. a cat pass on.a poor grandma on e roadside. a grad slideshow.a sad drama.a melodramatic romance show. all these bring tears to my eyes.but now it takes more than just tt to bring out my emotions.
but i'm more reserved nowadays. i dun fl like being with crowds. i'd rather be by myself or with my mum. my emotions scale fluctuates indiscreetly. i nd to settle on tt first before i start to mingle again. it comes and goes.it's like a routine thing for me. but it now comes by too often. and it's beginning to get on my nerve. i ought to try to avoid or prevent it somehow. i'm e pirate of my own destiny.not the otha way round!
