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Friday, February 20, 2009
kinda badly addicted to twilight saga.
now i'm @ e second book: new moon.
it's really sweet.so surreal.so wishful.
sighs.they're everyone dream couple.
perfect with all e minor squabbles.
tts insignificant if u see it indepth.
the power of their love was simply divine.
so overpowering.so sincere.
where everything simply overrules in love.
nth is wrong nor sinful.
it's so beautiful tt it left me in admiration.
it's like they too in love tt
if u separate them;it's suicidal.no air.
sheer insanity.
to be wishing for someone like Edward.
it's like wishing for the moon to fall
from the sky and into ur lap.
it's world's apart.
apparently even world's apart isn't
e likely comparison here.
perhaps universe aparts or planets apart
could cover up this comparison.lols.
but what else could a girl ask for.
perhaps a lil
SHOUT OUT : to all guys out there.Edward is Mr Ryte.
he's an examplary figure dude.
when watching TWILIGHT jot down e necessities.
Trust me;it'll help with ur rs go a LONG way...
well just a tip(:hehehes.
if only all guys are like Edward.life's perfect.hahas.
but of course reality sets in.
this is where a POOFFFF comes into picture.
the dream bubble simply burst.
air slowly seeps out while reality sets in.
nth is perfect.unless of course
u live life in e movies.
everyone is filled with flaws in one way or another.
perfectionist dun stand a chance of living
in our world.well not in sg anyways.
life's just better not perfect.
without e ups and downs.what is there to life.
it'll be such a bore..
life is such.sad.final.
nth seems to keep me sane.
help.
lack of happiness is driving me to e route of insanity.
life dun fl right.nth fits.
i officially ABSOLUTELY! no doubt there whatsoever.
HATES my 20th bday onwards.
FCUK IT!darn motherfcuk!i wanna stay forever in your arms.no promises.i dun wanna run away.i dun wanna be alone.no promises.now i need to hold you tyte.now and forever my love.no promises.
Friday, February 13, 2009
You control your destiny and future.Noone but you.
somehow life seems incomplete.
i'm happy[=
being with ur family has its hidden bliss.
it gave me e sense of serenity.
a peaceful within.
an achievement of some sort.
i learnt the meaning of love.
it dun just exist in adam and eve.
but in any bond tt live.
i'm glad i've turned to e right aim.
to gladly repay what i owe..
but something still feel amiss.
just dun fl ryte.
but i simply can't decide on what.
was raking up some junks in my closet.
will be shifting again soon.
so myte as well start earlier.than later.
i'm a well known procrastinator.
so i shld try dealing with it while tyme permits.lols.
as i was saying before i went astray,
i was raking upp junks;
and found some old stuffs to reminisce on.
lols.boy!am i glad to find those stuffs.lols.
letters.chatlogs.old diaries.
lols.literal junk!:D
was reading e chat logs me & my ex had.lols.
she asked me to be her gf onlyne.
and gullible as i was; also blinded by love.
eagerly accepted and trusted those words.
didn't bother thinking or dwelling over its consequences.
just *bammmm ryte into the danger.lols.
naive child i WAS!hurhur.
i fell in and out of love;
like it's e norms.lols.
hurt over and over agn.
i believe tt's e reason to why
i'm still strong and standing now.
i sure am glad tt my path crossed
with those who hurt me badly.
for thru them i learnt e meaning of
not trusting noone but urself.
for u came into this world by urself.
and only ur parents were by ur side.
bestfriends,relatives,friends and lovers
didn't exist then.yet u survived this far.
so why shld u let others be e reason
to why u live.let urself be ur own motivational strength.
for i slowly believe tt a hero lies in me.
each tyme i fall; tt hero will lift me up.
i'm really elated to see myself laughing at
my past tears.lols.recalled myself
tearing my hearts out cos of heartaches.
emotionals suicides;one after another.
those slashes now causing UGLY scars on my hand.
but i never regret(: just lesson learnt.
what i did or who i was is what tt led to who i am now.
and who i am ryte now will be who i am gonna be later on.
life is just a roller coaster that goes in circle.
it never stops nor pause for u.
i look into my diary and was actually sad at e fact tt
time flies too fast.it felt like yest
i cried for all my ex-es..
just yest i got att;one after another.
just yest i ditch someone.
just yest i felt love.and unloved.
just yest life was great.
but i guess no matter what life goes on.
i've met great ppl in my life
who had a gr8 deal of an impact
in my life.they've all contributed
a small sum in what i am today.
a much stronger emotionally and less
temperamental me.
i can take all tt u throw to me.
be it a love triangle.or one-sided love.
a broken heart.
now i take it all to my stride.
and tt gave me more strength to live by.
nth hurt me tt much anymore.
tears have gone dry.weird.
in secondary days.i was known as e weeper.
i weep @ literally everything.
a cat pass on.a poor grandma on e roadside.
a grad slideshow.a sad drama.a melodramatic romance show.
all these bring tears to my eyes.but now
it takes more than just tt to bring out my emotions.
but i'm more reserved nowadays.
i dun fl like being with crowds.
i'd rather be by myself or with my mum.
my emotions scale fluctuates indiscreetly.
i nd to settle on tt first before i start to mingle again.
it comes and goes.it's like a routine thing for me.
but it now comes by too often.
and it's beginning to get on my nerve.
i ought to try to avoid or prevent it somehow.
i'm e pirate of my own destiny.not the otha way round!
