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Monday, December 22, 2008
5 things i accomplished this year:
1. incomplete heart! 2. broken friendships! 3. disappointments.utter disappointments. 4. no improvements. 5.dejectful year-end but it was a lovely start:(
sighs,wondering if my friends will understand if i were to mia for this end of year.i just lost tt chirpy touch. all of me is fake for now. i am just lost;in this world of deceptions. all of my perspective of life as it is had gone down the drain. i tried my best to coax myself with all the positivity of this world can give. but it all came down to one thing:NEGATIVITY! i really lost it:( i just need tyme alone.to think.to let go sincerely. i'm sincerely sorry to whoever i may hurt. intentionally or vice versa. i just wish to be indulged in serenity for this year-end. i truly need it.i just wish to be by myself. i wanna go out to "celebrate" this new year by myself. i know i have gr8 friends who will always be there. but i guess i need myself to be back on par with life as it is. before i start to mingle again. please don't start hating me for this tyme for myself.
10 apologies: 1.sorry if i stopped being a friend -it's temporary;i promise!
2.sorry if i don't reply. -whichever;your texts,your calls.etc.
3.sorry if i hurt your feelings. -in whatever way;intentionally or vice versa.
4.sorry if i get bitchy. -to err is human.
5.sorry if i stop being me. -every human change.
6.sorry if i NEVER will reply u anymore. -shows that i've moved on from u.
7.sorry if i start being fussy. -once in awhile;i deserve e best.
8.sorry if i break down & cry. -i'm not being emo;just being humanly sane.
9.sorry if i made any of you lose trust in me. -it's sth impt i learnt;trust is to be gained.but it solely up to indv.if i'm worth it.keep me.if i'm not.go!
10.sorry if i stop showing care & affection;LOVE. -cos LOVE do not exist in my life for now.i dun wish to show it. tt don't mean i dun cre.just prefer to kp it in.let it creep within me.for me only to know.& e rest nvr to find out!
