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Wednesday, October 29, 2008
i re-edit e whole pic. LOLS.this is my virgin attempt. cool or wad?LOLS. for e template thingyy.hehs. so been idling myself @ hme. didn't wish to go to work. just felt restless and incomplete.tt stupid feeling nvr go away.it seems to hurt far too much.all this weird happenings.all this feelings in me. they came in all @ e wrong tyme.
e feeling of being used. e feeling of being un-cared for. e feeling of being a listener but noone listens. e feeling of frustrations when ppl just blame u. e feeling of being controlled over. e feeling of being un-loved. e feeling of being neglected. e feeling of being too submissive tt others are taking advantage. e feeling of being taken for granted. e feeling of surpressed pain tt noone noes. e feeling of being down under. e feeling of fearing everything incl self. e feeling of temptation to do self-inflicted pain agn. e feeling of not at home. e feeling of hurt and sorrow. e feeling of uncertainty. e feeling of being misjudged. e feeling of being totally outta place. e feeling of frustrations and infuriation.
they just keep haunting me till my very dreams run a hundred miles away. and all tt was in my slumber was nytemares. so i'd chose rather not to slp than to slp and end up waking up soaking my pillows with my tears. i think i bottled too much emotions in me. tt i bcame this emo sh*tt. it's rly infuriating to be feeling this way. i want my life to be an exhilarating ride. not a dysphoric lifestyle. i want it NOT to be typical. but a special one with meaning. but e reason to why it is meaningful to my life takes FARRR too long to decide on whether i am or am i not e FINAL decision of HIS! sighs.sadly.but i'm willing to wait somemre. for it doesn't make much of a difference if i were to wait or not to wait.
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