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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
things were really terrible yest. sighs.. i almost lost my dearest lovely friend. -sobs- but lucky thing she was DAMN str8forward.. and i really thank her 4 tt. though it may seem to hurt at first. but i manage to cry a little and pull myself thru after tt. sighs..but thanks.really thanks a lot. if only i were as daring as u. maybe i wldn't hv lost my previous friends. sighs..
well... i don't like to be doubted! esp whn it comes to my love for someone. i wont say "i love you" if it isn't really there. i noe wad tt 3 words sentence cn cause. it cn cause heart ache.hurt.bruised.disappointment. hw do i know it? i've bn thru it once. and i had 2 go thru shit just to get over e fact tt she din love me. and tt she didnt had flgs 4 me. that e "i love you" meant nothing 2 her. but thanks 2 tt "i love you" it had given me hope.. a hope 2 high 2 be reached. e dumbest thing i did was willingly trust tt words.that FUCKING words. which meant e world 4 me at tt point of tyme. sighs. so if i myself was DEEPLYhurt by it once. why e hell would i want 2 do it to u??? i dont believe in saying oh my "i love you" and tt shit if i doesnt even mean a thing 2 me!! and i wont say i'm over tt person UNLESSi am really OVER tt person!!!and trust me on tt.. i dont gif a fuck on my exes anymore. they have moved on with their own life. so i am doing exactly tt!! why lahs.each tyme i say i moved on.ppl will think i am still not over e past.still brooding over it!!! i'm not a DESPERATE BITCH u noe!!once i say over. means over..not even a fraction of flg is left. and i've moved on.with my new.much more worthy of my love. so y brood over wad tt cn be never mine anymore? sighs...whn i brood over e past u all go.dhlah nora.wad is past is past.move on.thn i whn i really2 dh move on.u all think i'm bluffing.like wtf ryte??!!!??!!mak kau piss siahs.... sighs...up 2 u lahs.nk believe if i'm over her or nots....