blog,
Thursday, December 23, 2004
well...
changed my template..
and i love it...
hehe..
ermz...holz r boredom
been staying at home...
did some studying...
haiz...
but can't reallie
concentrate much...
went to libs a couple of time...
one time met up wid lala
n joey...
thn lala dearie asked
my daddie 2 allow me go 2 the ice
skating palace at jurong...
yeah:D
my dad let me go...
hehe...
then we went ice skating...
so fun..
wid susu,melsa,cheryl,cheryl's sis
abigail,joey,joey's friend aaron and lala...
hehe..so fun..
fell right on my ass a few times..
trying to control my balance..
haha..
and tt lala had hella fun
pulling me dwn:P
haha...
then susu and me both dunnoe
but willing to take risk after a few falls..
then we managed to skate
quite far without supervision..
hehe...
but fun larhz...
one part so freaking funny....
i was holding suzana's hand...
cuz i scared to cross myself...
thn stupid suzana kinda loses her balance...
and pulled me along wid her...
haiz...
fell agn....
gt so wet...
my ass was not onli freaking wet...
but it was super cold too....
i was shivering can..
lucky thang i decided 2 bring a sweater
wid me...but it wasn't much help
though...
haiz...but i love tt dae...
juz tt one dae outing wid my friends...
did cheer me up a little...
but it wld hv been better if she* cld be
there...
cuz the whole time...i
cldn't take my mind off her...
wadever coupley stuff i see...will remind me of her*
haiz...wanted 2 go all out...
and be stress-free 4 a dae..
but i guess i can't unless she*'s wid me...
haiz...
there was loads of sad songs..and
also techno...
when it came 2 techno n rnb...
i wld dance a little..4 fun...
but when the slow romance or sad love songs came to air..
tears will sting my eyes...
haiz...
as my mind will wonder off...
thinking the pathetic state i'm in....
being singled out...
like i was kinda used 2 the feeling of
she*'s alwaez near me...
then went out wid her* juz felt different..
missed her* like mad..
but she* hurt me...
haiz...
hurt me by her* sarcasm...
her* spiteful words...
she* didn't even know my feelings.
and started 2 make assumptions..
haiz...
guess...tts life in love stores 4 u....
past will alwaez haunts u....
haiz..
tot i can leave my past as it is...
THE PAST.
but no...it'll alwaez
be repeated to me like as it's a chapter from
a book...
haiz....
how do i get rid of my past?
haiz..
well..i guess i've to face the fact tt my past are stucked wid me...
wherever i go..wid whoever i'm wid and whenever it is...
haiz...
-sobs-
hates my past....
well...i guess i dunnoe wad to sae...
haven't been meeting her* at all...
and she* dun seems least happie..
but there's no choice...
i hv to go over 2 my aunts...
busy wid my schedule..
that sometimes i cldn't hv time 2 tink of her*
haiz....tight schedule....
lots of hsework and nannying to do...
-blueks-
like i like those works..
haiz....
well...been out onli wid families or wid my sibs...
nia go out alone wid friends or anybody...
haiz...onli once and tt is went to ice skate...
haiz....
wished my dad hadn't found out abt my rs wid butch..
arghhhh.....wadever larhz....
i guess i need 2 end her...
i'm tired out...luv u peeps loads..
tag me often k...or i wld have nt much enthusiasm to blog...
hehehe....
-muackz-
-hugs-
