blog,
Saturday, October 16, 2004
haiz..
holidaez are here..
bored to death hehe..
haiz..
i've been up late n wake up
in the mid morning..
whoah..
pampering myself too much...
nt gd for myself..
hehe..
later become 2 lazie
thn die lorhz..
hmmm....
holidaez used to be a whole
lot of fun 4 me..
but nt much nw..
well..arghhh i dunnoe....
well...i love olinda cho..she so
chio in a dress..
muahahaha..
chio balls...
haha..i'm bored..
well..in less thn a wk
wld be hari raya..
if i'm nt wrg i onli fasted a wk or 2?
i dunnoe..the worst ramadan
this yr..
coz i didn't fulfilled most of my
fasting daez..
haiz...
*sobs...
nvm..i wanna go out..
but can't...
haiz..i wished....
well oklah i gtg...buaiz...
i updated solely 4 my dearest suzana...
happie dearie???
Thursday, October 14, 2004
a marriage ring...
hmm..
hehe..i love u...
well..
life been quite a
living hell
wid my parents
but a pleasure wid her*
thank u 4 being there 4 me:D
well..
abt my paremts..
they're nvr stopping
trying to get onto me..
haiz..
well..i wonder
y each time i spent wid her
seems so short...
haiz...
each time i'm wid her
i dun fl like going home...
i fl like staying wid her alwaez..
i miss her a lot..
haiz...
Sunday, October 10, 2004
haha..
ermz...yesterdae
went out wid
nadz,yan,zac,zac's gf nurul
and her*..
hehe..we went to east coast..
at first met her*
thn we went to bedok
change phone wid her* friend...
thn we took bus 2 bedok inter..
and took a cab 2 ecp..
thn i was at east coast mac
searching 4 thm..
dun hv..
thn i called zac..
tt woman nvr pick up the phone..
apelah..
thn i called yan..
thn yan sae she at the beach there..
so i walk wid her*
to the beach..searching 4
thm..
thn in the end...
still cannot find...
thn called thm agn..
thn zac and nurul came and bring us there..
muahahahaha...
thn sit ard..
thn nadz teached me accounts..
hehehe...
thn i laughed2..
tt zac arh...idiot
make fun of me...
hrmphhh...
she toking to her stead..dunnoe wad..
thn i heard same rite the face...
dunnoe wad rubbish..
thn i ask lah..who who?
thn zac sae..eh2 kepo..
babi..haha...
thn i sae cheebye..
thn she laughed..lol..
fun siahz...
she called me makcik..
babi sehz..hrmphhh-merajuk-....
but fun lah...
thn zac tok 2 her*...
haha
stupid ask her* if she'd eaten
twice..no
other question ar??
lol...
well...nurul damn chio can..
hehe..
klah..i gtg...
muarckz...
i guess tts all..haha
i had so much fun..
oh yeah 4gt..
thn ard 6.20pm..
i left the place where zac they all
were..
me n her* walk to the chalet..
showed her whn me n him*..
1st whn stead...
blah blah blah...
thn we walked to the bustop...
hehe...
scary siahz...
i grabbed her hand a few times...
coz gt big DOGS...
thn summore the place so eerie...
whn we walked under tunnel...
it was so fucking quiet...and so eerie...
scarie siahz...
thn gt this place..it was so fucking
scary..
my freaking hairs were standing on its
end ok..
summore it was maghrib...
i wanted to cry..
thn summore my eyes caught sight
of sth white in the drain..
so i juz walked...
n i was stunned shut...
eerie siahz..
nvr going to east coast at nite w/o
a lot of ppl wid me..
fucked scarie can..
ARGHHHHHH....
my heart was beating damn fast lorhz...
scary...
thn whn at last we reached the bustop..
she idiot sehz...
nvr tell me gt dog...
summore i was so scared..
gt dogs howling inside the condo...
thn i was hugging her...
thn skali gt two huge dogs walk pass....
i didn't notice..
skali i turned ard..
and saw the dog..
i screamed like fuck onli...
thn i jumped towards the bus track..
luckily there wasn't any bus coming...
scarie siahz...
whoah....
thn in the bus funnie...
haha..i keep on laughing all the wae home...
haha..dunnoe hw she noe..
tt i'm actuallie scared...
tts y i'm laughing..
to stop tears frm rolling dwn my cheeks...
i was afraid of dad...
and also wad i saw juz nw at east coast...
haiz..
scared the wits outta me...
-sobs-
Friday, October 08, 2004
well...
had my eng n malay
both paper 1 n 2...
well..hope
to score in those..
thn todae had..
my social stu and maths paper1
i was so scared...
thn i panicked..
and everything went blank..
thn i slowly..
read..and re-read the
questions..
till my memory recover..
phewww..
i did wad i cld remember..
haiz..
thn maths paper1..
was quite ok2 lah...
it wasn't tt easy..
haiz..
i scared lah...
i hope i can score in
all my subs...
i dun CARE!!
i'm gonna do my best
and nt give up..
i shall practice more 4 my
paper 2 and accounts..
i need my top5 position!!!
i need to recover my teachers
faith n trust in me..
haiz...
and i also need to prove to my dad
tt i am DOING WELL..
wid or WITHOUT HER* being in my life..
she doesn't affects my studies..
haiz...
but i need her..
coz i love her..
so pls juz stop pestering me to
leave her n forget her...
if it was easy..
i wld hv done tt long time ago..
stupid..
u parents
came in too late..
juz a few daez too late...
so dun expect me to forget her..
as easy as i was
learning abc ok!!!
irritating..
fuckers....
arghhh..irritating..
they're juz getting on my nerve siahz..
i'll prove
u fuckers wrg ok...
i'll go my wae..
listen to wad MY heart
saez...
and do wad I tink is rite...
so fucked off and
mind ur own bizz ok....
tts all....
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
hmmm...
tomoro is exams..
am i readie 4 it?
i seriously dunnoe..
haiz..
i scared ah...
haiz...
tensed up siahz...
wtf...
urghhh...
oh god..help me..
help me pass my exams gracefully..
coz i believed i put in the
effort..
juz tt its nt shown...
haiz..
well...
ermz...
i juz hope 4 tomoro's paper
it wld be easy..
coz my english getting worst..
hrmphh...
must tok more english...
RYANN HELP ME...
arghhhh...
malay?
well..but i taking
express paper leh..i scared siahz...
haiz...
ya allah..tolong lah..
hmmmm...
well..
i dunnoe wad to sae...
lalallalalala....
suzana happie?
i blogged...
grrrr.....
btw dear thanks 4 tagging me hehe...
tc ppl...buaiz..
i juz realise tt ryann nvr tag me so often
alreadie..
*sad..
kak mai u forgot me alreadie ah..
i'm still wondering who is
gazze?hmm..-tinks-
Sunday, October 03, 2004
haiz...
before our
2nd mth
we're already
fighting a lot..
haiz..
hope we can last
as long as
it takes..
hope we can go thru
this whole journey
together...
haiz..
hope we wun hv much
tiffs in our r/s..
coz i can't bear to lose
her..
haiz..hope
my parents will interfere
no more..
coz all i'm asking 4 is
her love...
is tt so much 4 my
parents to accept..
i noe wad i'm doing is wrg..
but i've fallen
4 her..
i dun tink i'll let othas
influence me..
i've been bad to her..
haiz..
i'm being so unreasonable..
i'm nt appreciating her.
i dun wanna realise her importance
before it's too late..
i wanna realise it nw itself..
haiz..
i need u.
i want u.
i love u.
Friday, October 01, 2004
haiz...
why must my love hurts
this much?
haiz..
i fl like dying siahz...
haiz..
why is all this happening to me?
haiz..
life's terrible..
i cried like fuck whn they
ask me to break wid
her..
tink so easy is it?
fuck man..
i love her so much alreadie..
thn they all do
this to me..my mood is very bad
seh..
haiz..
i'm so afraid they
she mite leave me..i love her
a lot..haiz..
well..
auntie susan advised me a lot todae
but i'm afraid..
afraid..
afraid..
afraid..
tts all i'm feeling rite nw..
afraid of losing u
afraid of my exams
afraid of being sucha a selfish bitch
afraid things mite change..
haiz...
i love u.i need u.i want u.
how to leave u?
craziness...
