blog,
Monday, August 30, 2004
well...
i'm bored so
decided to blog...
hmm...
todae...
nuthing much..
tt ms masura called my
parents..
actuallie..i deserve it ah..
never do her werk...
haiz..stupid me..
hw cld i even forget in
the 1st place
it's ms masura's work..
haiz..
i'm bored...
shit lah...
i fl bad..haiz...i said
to her* tat
tomoro i going meet
my ex crush...
cuz i going my old skul wad..
thn she jealous...
haiz...
she ask me convey her regards to him..
haiz..
sorrie...
hehe....
well..nvm..
well..i gtg..bb....
Sunday, August 29, 2004
lalalalal....
well...
i gtg
hehe...
ermz...
bb...
btw i lazie 2 update
alreadie..
cuz noone reading..
btw saedah
well..thanks
and i'll tell u once
i'm readie ok..
-hugs-
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
hmm...
to
some ppl...
eh gal..
i dun gif a shit
if u dun wanna ackowledge me
as ur friend
its no big deal
but such a pity
u're directly in front of
me during assembly
dun wanna see ur sickening face man
cuz i never knew
one whom i used 2 cherished so
much can actuallie did
tt to me..
whn u went wid mai
i didn't wanna care..
but i'm filled wid jealousy...
y?
cuz i was concern 4 u
but u pushed me awae..cuz u found
a new bestfriend..
but i didn't wanna care
y cuz i trust u
day by day..
our friendship seemed to lessen
but i still keep quiet
haiz...
but now u're too much
i dunnoe wad the
fucking hell is wrg wid u
wadever u're angrie wid..juz wanna tell u gal..
i dun gif a damn
nt abt u
nor abt ur life
nor anything to do wid u...
i used 2 sae
i hate to lose my friends
but hey gal...
if u choose to lose me
thn i dun mind losing u too..
i wasn't the one who showed u attitude
it was u...
i wasn't the one who didn't wanna acknowledge u
it was u...
so u wanna play a game?
sure..
gal...i'm on
and i hope u're able 2 take it...
cuz gal...
once u provoke me..
i'll bite..
real hard!!!...
so get a fucking life....
well..
i guess i noe wad
kind of friends
i hv...
those who juz wun respect my
decision for privacy
haiz...
why do i gv this kinda friends?
i tot my closest friends
wun go to the extend of
searching 4 her*
but they tried
to find out..
and stuff..
leave me alone ok...
juz gimme some room to breathe
till i'm readie
thn i'll sae ok..
haiz...
i'm tired...
i wanna go eat..
sick of my friends...
onli certain friends undrstd me
but ppl i tot wld undrstd the most..
was the one
who actuallie proved me wrg
haiz...
-sobs-
i fl like i'm stucked
btw my friends
and her*
so i'm repeating wad i said 2 saedah
if u all go all out to find
out who is it
i'll break up wid her...
ok..
and i mean it!!!
Friday, August 20, 2004
There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one
which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human, and
enough hope to make you happy! .
The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.
Please send this message to those people
who mean something to you (I JUST DID);
to those who have touched your life in one way or another;
to those who make you smile when you really need it;
to those who make you see the
brighter side of things when you are really down;
to those whose friendship you appreciate;
to those who are so meaningful in your life.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away!
Enjoy all moments of life
well...
todae had fun
haha..
thanks peeps...
though i returned hm
late..
muahaha...
but i happie:D
well...
i'm attach agn...
i'm so happie..
thank u...
i decided nt to gif
him a
chance 2 be in my heart agn...
sorrie...
why shld i be sorrie
i made the rite
choice...
hmmm....
-smiles-
i'm happie...
lalalalalalalalalalalala....
well...
to
u i hope..
u wun break
my heart ok...i'll nt break urs..
promise...
arghhh...
i saw my darling beloved kor
after wad i'll sae yrs
haha...
hugged her..haha
i'm so happie:D
hehe...
kor yes i promise 2 strive harder k
i love u loads..
thanks...
btw..swit dreams ppl...
THIS IS FOR ALL MY CLOSEST & UNDRSTDING FRIEND OUT THERE........
certain things..
in life u just can't tell..
it's meant as a secret
but tt doesn't mean i'm ur close
friend no more...
so pls..
i hope..
wadever i wrote in my blog..
no one will try 2 force
it out of me...
or try 2 even ask me...
who or wad is happening in my life...
i'm sorrie..ok..
and if u inquired abt it..
i'll juz show u black face ok...
haiz...
apologise agn..hope u ppl undrstd k...
of crse u all hv 2 undrstd cuz
u all r my close friends...
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
hmm...
interesting..
i'm a sensitive gf
sure nt..
hmm..
maybe ah..
haha..
but i definitely..
cares abt wad my love is
tinking..and her feelings and stuff
summore..
as long as she happie can..
dun need care abt
my feelings..
and wadever i do..
she must like...
if she dun
thn i wun do it at all..
hehe..well..
ermz..
ahh...so paiseh yesterdae
nvm..
shall nt brag details at my blog
muahaha...
:P
nadz n saedz
dun tell anione anymore ok...
i paiseh enuf alreadie..
*blush
haha
yeahhhh....
*jumps ard...
i learnt the alphabets[big deal?]
lol
i mean..the
sign language alphabet:D
hahaha
yippiez...
shall practice more often
bb...
ahh...
shld i like her or nt???
i'm so confused..thn
if i like her..
wld she like me back?
arghhh...
same old questions...
haiz..
but i tink i'm too ugly
4 her..
hw???
haiz~...
ahh..dunnoe lah...
i mustn't fall 4 her..
cuz i dun wanna end up
getting hurt agn n agn...
Sunday, August 15, 2004
hmmm...
was browsing thru
friendster...
cuz i'm bored..
zac scared me wid the msg
haha..
tot she reallie angry
turned out
sum joke thang
haha..
nice werk...'
hrmphh..
haha..well..i'm bored
wad shld i update abt...
haiz..
todae..i went
dwn n help cik yu
agn..
cuz gt a lot of customers
and she
look like
she mite juz blow
her top any time soon..so
me being my thoughtful self [bhb,hehe]
offered to help..
haha...
thn i tok in
different accents
1st..
like typical minah..
y?
cuz i my customers was mats...[i suck at it though]
thn 2nd..
like englishian..[lol gt sucha word?]
well..cuz gt this eurasian guy
thn juz myself lah...
cheerful n bubbly..
*bluekkz..
just exterior lah huh...
hmmm....
i added quite a number
of butches in my friendster..lol..
well...
i wanna go slp
nitey nitez...
hmm...is my heart doing the rite thang?
cuz my heart says it's alrite 2 fall 4 her..and she wun bring me dwn..but my brains..totally opposed to it..hw?
shld i listen to my heart or my brains?
haiz..i'm so confused...i tink i like her^
but the other part of me saes i can't...
cuz she wun like me back..and i'll end up getting hurt..
so which part shld i listen 2?
and shld i follow my heart or use my brains..and
nt to fl sensitive towards..my own tots n brains?????
*confused..
needs help...
Saturday, August 14, 2004
well..
todae..
had much fun...
went skul..
B~O~R~E~D~O~M~
so smsed most of the lessons..
well..
thn go back
wid susu n saedz...
met ryann at bedok mac..
thn sit ard 4 awhile...
thn went home..
ryann send saedah
home...
thn susu went home...
thn i took my bus home lorhz...
reached home
ard sae 5sth...
tot dad gonna scold me...
thn he called me over
thn ask me
unlock the bicycle..so
i sat 4 awhile...
thn i went 2 help cik yu..
sell chickens..lol..
haha...
fried chicken n stuff..
whoopeedooo...
interesting job..haha
well...
thn i "work" all the wae
till sae
ermz...12am
thn stayed downstairs[coffeeshop]
lepak2 wid my godsis
thn my godsis me and godsis fwen & sis
[cik yati,kak kam & kak enon]
we talked abt
ghost stories...
whoooo...
interesting..
thn fuck thm lah...
tell until so sianz...
i gt so scared
tt i didn't dare 2 go up the lift
alone..
so kak kam[godsis]
sent me home...
lol...
haha...
scared siahz..
esp abt the sembawang park thang...
whooooooo....
scarie...*freaked out...
well...
but i was sad+disappointed+afraid+happy
in the morn..
thn at nite...:D
haha...
onli whn i went home..
thn tok to abg wendy...
and abg boy..
tot they sombong...
but hey..cool...
they are so fucking friendly
lol..
esp abg wendy
so cool...
lol...
so fun..
but he alwaez bully me..
Hrmphhhh....
well...
ok lah..
tt stupid dad of mine..
is nagging
cuz i'm staying up till 4 am n blogging
lol...
haha...
chiaoz...
Monday, August 09, 2004
i'm
too sick
and tired
of my life..
haiz..
it's
the same
old thing..
same old
hurts
same old
killings...
so wad's the
meaning of life
anywae??
hey...
whoah...
i'm shocked..
haha..
todae..
i'm cheered a bit
haha..though
[[she]]
didn't come online
4 thr3e daez
alreadie..
but gt
someone else
very the nice..but
will nt fall 4 her lah...
cuz she goes 4 looks
i tink...
she herself yan
surely
go 4 looks..
so wth...
i shall juz
fall in love wid my
studies
all over agn..
so all
i need 2 worrie abt
is my skulwerk
and stuff..
dun need 2 decide much..
hmm....
well..
shall get 2 noe more ppl...
now me n faizal's
family...
is very2 distant..
though i wanna be wid thm..
my parents dun allow...
haiz...
waterloo...
juz accept lorhz...
it's alwaez
the same old storie
wad..
find sumone whom
is dear to my heart..
it's either i will
lose thm
or forced 2
forget n slowly
leave thm...
haiz...
tts wad my life is abt..
losing..
wad's so gr8 abt life anywae...
well..
guess tts all...
muarckz...
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
Sunday, August 08, 2004
hmm
well..life
is so unpredictable
ppl come n go
well..
shld i learn to
accept or let go??
haiz..
pls ppl..
if u noe u'll leave
me..
thn do tt once
and nvr come
back agn..
leave me alone ok..
once hurt
is enuf
dun keep on repeating
the action
and hurt me agn n agn...
haiz...
enuf wid all these shit..
well..forget it
i shall grace myself n accept
tt she's juz toying
wid me...
hurt enuf..
so fuck off frm my liFE!!!!!
why is it like
this?
haiz...i reallie fl fucked up
all over agn..
if u're gonna come and go agn..
thn why the fuck u
came back?
u're juz hurting me more...
i'm in a state bad enuf..
u dun
need 2 add more...
i fl sickeningly hollow...
i went on being stupid online...
i start toking rubbish..
and disturbing ppl
and i laughed
non-stop till tears stung my eyes
to hide my
sad voice..
whn i was talking 2 saedah n ryann..
i start talking nonsense
and acting ridiculous...
i talk nonsense...
and pretended i was reallie happie...
haiz..
i'm sickly tired...
iflfuckedup
i dunnoe why...
life is so pressurising...
i questioned god agn..when i layed on my bed...
why u make us meet agn...
if u're gonna make her go awae...
fucked up..
nt enuf wid u hurting me tt time...
why is god being so
bad towards me??
why is he so bias one..alwaez me...
it's me getting hurt..
i met her..tt time..
and thn...
we lost touch...
i was on the verge of recovering frm the
hurt god had put me thru...
i had tried 2
learn to accept tt friends come n go...
thn y u make us meet agn???
why?
why?
why?
arghhhh.....
this is getting reallie irritating...
i tot..it's fated tt we meet agn...tt god was being kind
towards me 4 once..
but in the end..
He..did it agn..He make us lose contact..
haiz...
why is life like this?
can't we just live in a world where
grief and sadness
is juz non-existance??
it's enuf wid the tears shed 4 mr quah...
u took him awae frm all of us..
whn we weren't braced to lose him...
we weren't even
ready to accept the fact tt he will leave us tt soon...
why didn't u gaf him at least a few
more months of grace...
haiz....
i wld rather nt meet all this
ppl and in the end
juz loses thm..
it's juz too hurting..and i dunnoe
if i shld ever regret
letting faizal
enter my life...but i was
reallie glad..i made
the rite choice..on nt to gif my heart too soon...
cuz he juz proved 2 be another
bastard...
but i shall try 2 control my sayings of
him..i shld
nvr bad mouth him..
as i wldn't want him 2 badmouth me either...
well...i shld be grateful..
tt i met him and at
the very least..he did
showered me wid some love and attention...
though nt the love and attention i was craving for.....
haiz...
abt mr quah
i guess we all hv 2 learn
to let him go
though how hard it's gonna be like
to leave sumone whom
had touched our heart in different waez....
at least he did make me realise
tt i shld be appreciative of ppl when
they are still ard
and nt just wait till the dae
whn they're gone
tt u sit dwn and wail and sobs
and cries...
or even regret
cuz it's no use..we shld be grateful
tt there are ppl out there who deserves a better
treatment....
haiz..so ppl reached out to those
who needs ur help
and alwaez be grateful to those
who are still ard
cuz u may nvr noe whn they will be loved more by god..
thn u'll live to regret...
Friday, August 06, 2004
haiz...
being a princess..
just imagine..
getting a wish granted
4 ten daez
but in the end..u gt to
noe this prince..
and u will be a princess 4ever
i wished i cld be..
wid the love
showered..the protection
the warmth..
everything is juz so gr8...
so perfect..even
every mistake u make..
is alrite..
and u dun hv to do much werk
juz sit ard use ur brain and act pretty
easy job..
but it's onli 4 chiobus..
so wad the heck..
i'm too ugly..
haiz..i reallie hate myself siahz...
haiz..
yeah...thn u get to access
wid wadever u want..
wherever u go..ppl noe u
and respect u
ppl loves u..u get loads of attention
and u spent countless
money...
and everlasting joy...
the money comes and nvr go...
haiz...
being rich is really gr8..
wad's life w/o money n beauty...
haiz....
i hv none of tt so wth..
haiz...
some ppl is just so inconsiderate..haiz..
can't std thm..
like wth..
i'm nt some hotel..
whre u can come n go..
sickening..stop trying 2 hurt me..
i can fl no more..
the hurt i suffered...
is already enuf..
dun need 2 add anymore..
sick n tired of life...i'm offf....
btw..i gt very bad pms..so
dun bother me ok..
thank u...
well..todae
had our solemn national dae
celebration..cuz
todae was mr quah's funeral
haiz..
after the celebration ended at sae
9am..
we had a memorial prayer service 4 mr
quah..they showed his
photo and sum teachers
said their happie times and also their difficult
times wid mr quah..
i cried..
i cldn't take it..
i can't help crying so much...
haiz..
thn after all the crying
and stuff..
me,lala,susu,priya and idah
went out..
we went to b.i.
planned 2 go to mr quah's funeral
so we went to eat at harbourfront..thn
took mrt to ang mo kio
thn took bus
to the mandai cremation thing...
thn..
we sesat siahz..
haha...
but found our wae..and took a cab there..
we reached there..
thn gt a lot of ppl..
thn gt the ex student...i was
looking ard..skali i saw
carmen ortega..gt the shock of my life..
my heart juz went beating so fast..
thn i keep on breathing
deeply..
thn the prayers...
i cried...
agn..
i scared 2 go in and put the flower..
so i decline the
invitation frm mdm aznah..
haiz..
i was scared bcuz..
i scared i mite break dwn..
if i were to see him..
in tt state..i mite
juz cry even more...haiz..
thn in the end...
i,susu and idah stayed outside..
thn one by one came out crying...
rebecca cried so much
tt i see her cry..
i also cried agn..haiz..thn ms masura
hugged her..
haiz...thn i saw carmen..
she nia even cry..
well i guess she's strg lah..
i bumped into her more thn 3 times siahz...
1st she bumped into me..
thn later tt mrs lum..was asking me follow her..
here and there..thn
wrg place..so everyone had 2 turn ard..
thn she was in front of me..
thn she turn a bit too fast..
and bumped into me..
thn i tsk at her..
haha..
thn i juz look awae..
3rd time..going onto the bus..
i walk she turned ard abruptly..
thn i bumped into her..
and we hit each otha..
haha..saw the cute look on her face
she grew so much thinner..
kk..i wanna watch my "double happiness"
bb...
Thursday, August 05, 2004
suzana is here..in my hse...all i can sae is she's crazie..haiyoh.. lazie 2 update abt todae..so tts all..bb..
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
well...
todae..boring..
nuthing much to do..
lucky sia..mrs lum thrice
almost caught me
smsing in class...
well...
i was bored during her lessons wad...
during ss..write letters
ppl finish wid the notes..i
juz finished wid my decor..
haha..luckily she
didn't caught me..
hmm...my tama fite a lot todae
haha..
mr poh was so fierce siahz...
scarie...
hmm...
well...
thn after skul..
went to accompany tt susu go kfc
but we followed saed
1st..thn
yan came..
disturb her..
hahaha..
thn me susu and diah went
seperate directions..
susu went 2 kfc..
thn sae she dun wanna eat there cuz ex...
so we went 2 bk..
haiyoh..tt gerl ah..make
me walk thn dun want
so i juz force her 2 eat at bk
i took her wallet n the coupon
and make her eat...
haha..
well..thn rushed home..
mummy n daddie nia scold me...
pheww...
well...
thn i went to hawker bought
food..
and lepak2[as said by ryann]
*rolls eyes
hahakz...
under my blok..
thn at 5 plus i went up..haha...
thn chatted wid 3 ppl..
ermz..ryann..joey and han..
thn laze ard..
need 2 do ss..
i lazie ar....bb tc dudes...
i'm in love wid dykes..
i'm crooked back..haha
