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Monday, May 31, 2004
well..our 9th dae liaoz..n things seemed to be going quite well..juz the hiding part onli..well..i gt a feeling tt we can last very long.. and i hope..our relationship wun come to an end..to me everytime we get to meet..is a start to a new beginning..n i hope he'll alwaez be there 4 me..n i promise 2 be there 4 him nw n ever..
Saturday, May 29, 2004
mariah..wad onli u..i'm nvr bz k..noone called me whn i at hm..i go out larhz..sit at home also boring..haha..[psst..actuallie tts a lie.. juz another excuse..]haha..yest we met at the back ard 11 plus..juz the two of us..haha..without kak kam..i am still as awkward as ever.. well..he gt 2 be patient wid me..cuz i am so blur like wad..cannot blame me marhz..first time k..haha..well..nw i need to at least hear his voice b4 i go to slp..or i wun be able to slp in peace..haha.. aminah..aminah..hope he wun hurt me larhz..n thnks latiff..sorrie abt the whole thing k..susu...shut up k...gwen..:P:P:P
nora("v")faizal
hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.
What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
VIRGO MALE
You have a great curiosity about women. These fine creatures are something for you to experiment with, examine and cater to. As for sex you feel that it is an experience that should not be overlooked, providing you have the time and the desire. You are interested in anything that will further your career. You are always interested in how much money your partner can make and in turn what they do with it as you find waste to be sinful. You can come across as a father figure if your mate lets you become over protective. You will only propose or get into a committed partnership after a respectable length of time and only when you are one hundred percent sure that the relationship will be lasting. You need to feel that your mate will enhance and support your career and make your home a clean place of comfort. You offer security, reliability and faithfulness.
CAPRICORN FEMALE
You tend to attract weak men. You are not easy to figure out and you have a tendency to turn on and off frequently. In actuality you are the type of female who is afraid of falling in love with the wrong person. When you do find Mr. Right you will be a true blue partner with powerful emotions. You will do anything for your lover, however he must satisfy all your needs. You like to keep busy and you take life quite seriously. You also take excellent care of yourself. You dress with class, your neat, clean and somewhat formal. You love to be complimented by the man in your life.
Friday, May 28, 2004
Diana Ross~being in love with you
I thought I'd already touched the sky
I got to know you and I don't know why
But all of my life couldn't mean as much
As just being touched by you
I never thought of me growing up
Got my directions but the road was rough
It's only the dream of a teenage queen
But somehow I made it through
And I'd love to see
Those faces of those friends I left behind
And even those who spoke for me
Just trying to be kind
And no one said I love you just the way
I know you do
And I love being in love with you
Living inside your heart
The giving and the taking
You are not forsaken
I love being in love with you
Thank you just for choosing me
That we should be
Being in love forever
And ever, ever
I stare and wonder at what I found
I just discovered why the world is round
Round in a circle my arms will be
And doing the same as you
It ain't right it's only for you and me
Only the lonely do it seperately
Keep it alive on the food of love
But only the chosen few
In my life you see some changes in me
We listen and we grow
Any child that clings to childish things
Is trying to let go
And up to now
I'd thought I'd seen as far as I could see
And I love being in love with you
Living inside your heart
The giving and the taking
You are not forsaken
I love being in love with you
Thank you just for choosing me
That we should be
Being in love forever
And ever, ever
And I love being in love with you
Living inside your heart
The giving and the taking
You are not forsaken
I love being in love with you
Thank you just for choosing me
That we should be
I love being in love with you
Living inside your heart
The giving and the taking
You are not forsaken
I love being in love with you
went to bedok lib..thn later on i called him n atlas he picked up.. haha..thn me n idah went 2 his hse..well..we watch tt van helsing.. quite an interesting storie..haha..thn we juz laze ard..he's so swit.. haha..no need 2 to noe y he's swit..haha..but he's also a headache.. haha..but i'm glad he came into my life..idah..shhhh....haha...we gt a lot of secrets btw us..haha...
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla
-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity..
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What kind of girl are you? brought to you by Quizilla
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
yesterdae nite..tok 2 him on the phone...thn we plan 2 meet todae..haha..thn during recess i called him..yeah..thn after skool met up wid him..sha,mariah,nadz,idah n den..was there..yeah..thn whn he came..everyone kept quiet siahz..haha...i was like ok..wad happen siahz...haha...thn sat dwn n tok abt stuff larhz...thn abt sae 3 sth close to 4..me,him,sha and idah went hm...yeah...nw i am missing him alreadie..he coming here later at ard 6sth...i love him so much....muarkz..
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla
Sunday, May 23, 2004
todae..he asked me to be his..i can't believe it..i was like..am i dreaming..haiz..i was like at a stage higher thn cloud 9...haha..i am like in 7th heaven..i am so happie..i promise u i'll alwaez love u no matter wad..
True love had blossoms...
And he stepped into my garden..
he was the first one to saw me in the midst of all
the otha beautiful flowers..
i was already looking tired n hopeless..
as i had already begun distrust the meaning of love in my life...
But he came wif a spoonful of hope n a bucket full of love...
and my flower started to bloom wid the hope and joy tt i had surpressed
within me...
After yrs of suffering frm one-sided love..
i am nw beginning 2 undrstd hw it feels to love n be loved in return...
i reallie wanna thnk him for nt breaking my heart which is abt to crack..but he took it n embrace it n took the key awae frm him..
To him..i'll alwaez love u wid all my heart n soul...
Saturday, May 22, 2004
i've gt sucha fucked up parents..why in the fucking werld do they hv so many childrens if the can't even afford it..pls lorhz..i sacrificed 2 much liaoz..i hate my sibs..i want to be the onli one..fuck thm larhz..sickening..they expecting me 2 sacrifice till when siahz..huh.. till i die..wadever larhz..if they are financially unstable thn why muz they hv until so many children?????sickos...fuck thm 2 death siahz..they can go to hell 4 all i care..suCKERSA!!!!
Friday, May 21, 2004
Well..i saw him todae..can't describe hw happie i felt..i tink i was above cloud 9..haha..ermz...well..i was like irritating kak kam out of her wits..haha..but she wasn't even irritated..she look happie...haha..
well..nw i'm afraid if he were to find out..haiz..well...todaez life's per normal..juz wif tt cameramen buzzing ard..taking shots..i didn't even noe tt they were at the back whn i was hugging susu..yeah..i guess tts alll...
Thursday, May 20, 2004
well..he's coming back 2moro..can't believe it..arghhhh...i am so happie...his mum keep on toking abt him..thn kak kam juz look at me n hid a smile..sickening u noe..haha..i miz him like fuck..i wun be shock if i were 2 hug him siahz..haiz...my syg is coming back:D...i can't wait..it's abt 18hrs b4 he comes back:D..but it's still long..
oh yeah..btw...todae was wear-wad-u-want dae..so funnie..i wore my crossback black top n my bell botts...thn i put on make up..tied my hair halfwae up..n wore tt normal earrings i like 2 wear..thn idah said i almost look like a minah..i was like..juz smile..haha..nvr see glam 2dae...ARGHHHH...i jux can't take it..he's gonna be back 2moro..i dun tink i can't slp in peace siahz...haiz..
i dun care..tomoro i'm gonna rush hm frm skool...thn i'm gonna dress my best..haha..thn i shall go dwn..hmmm...haha..i hope he still rememba me though...haha..well..i'm scared lehz..wad if he discover the truth..abt me liking him..n he doesn't like it..i mean look larhz..
our age gap..n he's cute..whereas i'm so ugly here..haiz..he gt the looks while me??i've gt nuthing..n i dun even hv sum admirable character either..haiz..there's nuthing abt me which can make guys like me..nor even gif me a 2nd look..haiz..
and summore i so fat..he'll like me mehz???i'm seriously so confused.. haiz..well..as i said lotsa times b4..i hope i wun get hurt nimorez..i dun wanna hurt like i did b4..i'm nt going 2 take any chances of getting hurt agn n agn..if he were 2 hurt me 2..thn..i shall juz hv crushes but i'll nvr..love nione..cuz it hurts so much more..haiz..i am so confused..why muz life be full of mystery n unanswered questions
..haiz..wished there's an answer 2 everything...guess tts all..muakz..
Monday, May 17, 2004
well..i felt so hurt todae..she sae i'm her bestfriend..and i'm the last 2 noe tt she hv a relationship..haiz..i feel so shitty..well..wad hurts me most was..everyone else noes..except 4 me..n tt i noe 2 frm othas ppl mouth nt hers..haiz..i felt betrayed maybe?..haiz..i feel so sad..aghh..heck care ah...
well..let's be on the happie mode..todae..me saedz idah n mariah went 2 mac's..i didn't wanna follow..but they made me..haha..yeah..diah n gwen also came..thn we ate n chat awae..thn i saw susu debrah n cherlie coming 2 macs..i run out n sae susu..haha..thn she shouted n came 2 me...n she hugged me so tight siahz..yeah..thn she sae..she may get suspended..i was like my god..hrmmpphh..thn she was like..u arhz.. y u go n tell her..i was like..huh..tt gerl sae the whole class of her knew n tld her..dunnoe wad shit..so i tot..if she alreadie noe..mite as well..tell her..haiz..i regretted it siahz...haiz..
yeah..thn she hugged me so many times..i feel so bad siahz..haiz..sum more todae her burfdae..rtc damn bad lehz..her burfdae thn tok abt suspension..haiz...susu i;m so sorrie k...yeah...todae i tink..i hug susu so many times..haiz..yeah..thn gt this grp of bungs..cute giler.. haha..thn i was like nak mintak nombor..asking saedz..thn in the end.. saedz asked 4 tt particular bung who uses the same bag as glamour..i ask 2 ask 4 the bung tt was using the 3 colour sling bag..thn she asked
..n gt her no..she name is atikah..bung name..utt..haha..so cute..she look abit like hadi putera..hehe..makkau...haiz..melt siahz..i kept on melting siahz..haha...nuffair..saedz they all gt to be near her..haha..
yeah thn whn saedz asking 4 tt bung's number..susu was like inside wid me..thn she sae..eh i wanna hear tt fella's voice...thn she went out.. put her hands on her hips..n ask tt gerl 2 sae hello..mcm makcik kepo i tell u..i was like laughing my head off..haha..so cute..haha...yeah thn after we gt her number n laughing...like dunnoe wad..we went out of the mac's..n went hm...haha..well..had fun larhz...
and i was supposed 2 call her at 9..but i scared...in the end i did call but i tink she bz or sth..she nvr pick up the phone..even if she did..i tink i'll put dwn..haha..yeah..tt's all..muakz...
Sunday, May 16, 2004
well...my heart is juz like tt fragile glass rose..i hope he will cherish me 4 who i am..n wun hurt me like hw she had hurt me..i dun blame her at all..i tld her all too late..well..so wad's the use..of crying over spilt milk..i gt 2 move on..n in my life..there was him n her..so she is attached..therefore..i hv 2 let her go..n move on wid my own life..i noe it's tough..but i hv 2..it's nt impossible..why must love alwaez hurt..well..maybe it was nvr meant to be..yeah..but i hope..he will nt ignore my love 2..haiz..well..we shall juz see larhz..
the main difference btw us is our age..but i'm willing 2 go thru tt..i believe tt in love..age,looks n appearances doesn't matter..but juz the heart...well..i hope he will accept me 4 who i am....guess tt's abt it...
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
my god...so adorable..my new cutie baby gerl cousin..todae is her birthdae..as in she was delivered 2dae..so cute my god..so adorable.. yeah..thn we went 2 the kk hosp...i saw her chubby face..wanted 2 bite it off siahz..my god...thn i ask so u decided on a name for her?thn i was expecting sum nice name...skali..she said..numairah..i was like.. eeewww...why tt name..of all otha nice malay name...why numairah???..
ya allah..nw i gt a cousin name numairah..haiz..later if in skool..i sae numairah cute
ppl will be tinking i like numairah..my god lorhz..haha..nvm..but she's so adorable..my god..haha...she gt sucha chubby cheeks..arghhh...so cute..wished i can pinch her..so fat n meaty..haha..yeah..
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Why do love alwaez feel this wae..i miz him like crazie..haiz..does he miz me 2? haiz..nw tt i am forgetting her..i decided 2 tell her everything..the truth..so i can forget her completely..rather..let her live in my memories..haiz..well..n i am gonna make myself strong..i dun wanna like glam nimorez..forget abt him..i noe deep within me i juz love him n onli him..but i hope i'll be strong..all the wae till 21st...he hadn't made me cry nt even once..hopefully it'll remain tt wae till he cums back...i'll love u n onli u..trust me...haiz...n i'll nvr hurt u like hw tt gurl previously hurt u..i'll love u wif all my heart...
Monday, May 03, 2004
haiz..oh yeah..2dae went hm str8 afta skool wif gwen..instead of taking the bus str8 awae..we went kfc 2 eat..haha..funnie siahz..niwaez..went reach hm.. went to kak kam's hse..so cute lorhz..then gt this new girl come in..actuallie she's new 2 me...but nt to thm...yeah..she so cute n funnie..thn she was like.. ni member baru ke pe..thn i juz smile..thn she offered me the "::"..and she sae it damn loud..thn i sae...shhh..later tok dengar..i die..haha..but lucky thang he's asleep..yeah..21st pls cum faster!!!...they damn cool siahz..haiz..yeah..thn
we went off to kallang ntuc there...bought the spaghetti stuff...kak kam is cooking for her fiance..well...i gaf her the idea..haha..so swit..hehehe..yeah..thn we went to her fiance hse cook the noodle 1st thn the rest all later thn she cook..thn we went hm...haha..yeah..thn i went over her hse 4 awhile...glamour came..thn he went toilet i tink..thn he came out..look ard thn..i sae i gtg..thn whn i went off..i was using my slipper n looking at the otha direction..thn dunnoe frm where..he stood beside me so near summore.. i turn ard...n our lips almost met lorhz..thn i was like...ehmakkaujatuh..thn i sae..my god lorhz u..shock me to death onli..thn he look into my eyes..n smile..haiz..i juz look awae..haiz...melt siahz..whn i met his eyes..no..no..i will make sure..i love one n the one is him..n noone else..glamour is juz a crush..haiz..i guess..tt's abt it..tc..hey rememba study 4 exams kk..buaiz..
Sunday, May 02, 2004
haiz..why must all this happen..i am so confused..haiz..now whn i chose to like him..he disappeared..as in he had to go sumwhere..nw he keep on appearing in my life..he treat me agn sweetly..both in front n behind his wife..why is it like this..but he doesn't tok 2 me much whn his wife is there..but whn his wife nt there..he alwaez smile or rather grin like one small boy..haiz..n nw..he keep on looking at me...whn our eyes meet..he seems to be saying he needs help..or maybe it's juz me???am i paranoid??haiz..help me..i am so confused siahz..haiz
...life is so terrible..i am so confused..do i reallie love him..n nt him...am i still having feelings for him..haiz...why must ppl fall in love..haiz..why must i fall in love so easily???where did this feeling cum frm..who was the first to feel it..haiz
..hrmpphhh....i dun like 2 fall in love..cuz i noe..i'll def end up getting hurt..haiz probably bcuz i am too uglie..haiz..n becouse i am fat..:'(
Well..yoz..todae..life..isn't tt bad..his mum went to visit him 2dae..boohoo..i cldn't follow..haiz..miss him so much..well..ermz..nuthing much happen..well..i am counting my special daez..on the 21st..is wat i am alwaez be looking forward for..the dae awaits me..i'm so deeply in love wif u..and i'll alwaez count the daez left..
Saturday, May 01, 2004
Tt stupid guy..sick man..haiz..keep on looking at me..like wat the hell..i juz sat there..thn he play n stuff..thn turn n look at me..thn my mom noticed..n tell me..thn i sae..heck care ah..he look also will confirm wun get me one lorhz..thn my mom juz laugh..well..thn tt adi guy..whn tt time i like him..it is like so hard 2 see him..nt tt i dun realliee like him..he keep on appearing..haiz..well..oh yeah..thn nw i like him..he is nt here!!!last time whn i dun reallie like him as in tt wae..he was alwaez there.. boohoo..nvm..still counting dwn to 21st...well..he can stare at me for all he want..but he can nvr get me:P.. sorrie..bb
